I'm really tired of all this around me. I'm still here yet they still want so much, the fact that i'm still here is the important thing. Because i could have gotten out a long time ago. I'm tired of being repressed, I WANT TO BE ME. it's not fucking fair that all the hypocrites around me tell to "follow you're dreams" or "be yourself" When fucking can't. I so tired of being here. All you all that blind? all these people around me are the people that i want to dissaprate from my life for better or worse. i'll never understand if you won't let understand. I wish that it was easy to let go of all those around me but that only happens in movies never life.
I don't want to sound like a spoiled bitch but I want and need the attention i deserve in my family/life. I'm fucking tired of never being able to get that. And they still want me to give them more 'love' than I will ever receive. Everyone should be entitiled to people who truly care about them. The people who say someday are just full of shit. NO I'm not fucking depressed, no I don't hurt myself, Yes i do love myself above all because if i don't who will?
this world that i live in will probably continue to rotate as i continue my journey but I don't want to think about people who don't give a damn about me. They all care about someone else. I know under some circumstances there are exceptions, but if i don't care about me who will? life isn't going to be downhill from here but at least i can be humble. Because you won't enjoy being on top when you have never been down. If I don't care about myself now who will?
My life is a struggle that gets harder as days go by, but at the end will it be worth it.